"Change like shit and diamond formation, happens" Olgar nods "I mean, I can tell you that your mom and dad, and your brother, still there, and happy to see you when you visit. But you know that in your head, convincing the heart, that's a real bitch ain't it? Just my guess, but you feel in a no winner here. You go running home you let yourself and others down. You stay here, you feel like you're in exile. Before you beat yourself up about it, I remind you of how miserable Siv felt and acted when she thought that her time at Earth Runes was a banishment. "