"I know... but sometimes you do a good job of closing off avenues to making a difference. We've had fosters we could have taken in and let you shape. You sneer at them like an old cat finding a kitten. I have grand kids who will see you as their pop pop... but you don't really want to bond. Either could learn a lot from you, even if not full crownbreaker tactics, you could guide them away from the 'thees and thous let me kiss thy ass oh liege lord' lifestyle. But beyond musing mortal dreamers, which IS wonderful, what do you do?"