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March 21st, 2020
shadylady 5:26pm
"Nothing important. It is good to hear your voice, Brekke."
robinrahne 5:28pm
"Yours as well, Frank. Siv has sent a message." She would have told him about the previous one, and her reply.
shadylady 5:29pm
"Is she ok?" Alert.
robinrahne 5:31pm
"Her last letter...well, you know, she thought she was being sent away. I have not yet read this one." She looks at it in her hand. A grin in her tone as she says, "Her Norwegian is not bad, though."
robinrahne 5:34pm
"Should I translate it for you as I read?"
shadylady 5:36pm
"I would like that." A low rumble.
robinrahne 5:37pm
"Then I will do so." And she begins reading. The translation is a bit stilted and awkward, and sometimes she has to rephrase some idiom that Siv had attempted, but she does translate the letter faithfully, as follows:
earldebuke 5:37pm
The writing isn't quite as polished this time, perhaps a bit more rushed, but it is in Norweigan more or less...
earldebuke 5:44pm
Dear mother and father, In regards to your last letter. There are no words for how big a fool I feel. ANd no small amount of guilt. I did not intend to cast you and father in villains roles, and yet it seems to some degree I did. And I am sorry. When I had a choice, when it was OF my choice, I thought it wonderful, but when you had me stay here and not to leave (Or so I read it wrongly)...
earldebuke 5:46pm
A part of me thought perhaps there was some failure in me, that I had disappointed you, that you felt I could not manage choices on my own so needed them taken from me. I decided to prove myself up to it and then some, to find favor again. Favor it turns out I never lost.
earldebuke 5:54pm
I also tried to please the Baroness, determined to prove myself to be her kind of Fiona, and yes, I wanted to be the perfect girlfriend to Jonas. I spread myself thin not in duties, but in masters whose approval I had to live for and overwhelmed, I became scared of failure. I brewed in my fancies resentment it seem, of all because twas easier to scapegoat .. I didn't even realize I'd done it. I hope you forgive the cowardly corners of my mind that did such to you. I have it made known to me by a friend that you have not sent me here out of some sense I cannot suceed without your control, but rather that it was to show that you support me utterly.
earldebuke 5:59pm
I need to be myself, my best self to be sure, but I cheat all in trying to please all and forgetting who and what I am. I am Siv Waveborne , daughter of the Mountain that rolls and the Storm that breaks shackles with the thunder of her righteous fury. I am born in lands of dream, but in my blood sings the old tails of Norway and the woods of New Jersey. I don't have to prove that. I Just need to be. And by being, continue to become.
earldebuke 6:03pm
The Baroness will either take me, or she won't. But if i am to fail, I will fail as my best self. Anything else is a lie. And I will not live such. Know I love you both and that I am, slowly, learning. I will sail where I will, and laugh and cry without shame. I WILL come home in time, not because I am ordered or obliged, but because I love it, and the two of you. Lion on my breast or no, I realize you could never be ashamed of me for trying and faiiling as long as I gave my all. And I know that Coradel would not spurn me out of malice, but out of kindness to me and to her own house .
earldebuke 6:04pm
This must seem rambling, but I hope it helps you as much as your letter helped me. Father and you will never lose me, not forever. And I will sail forward and brave the winds with teeth flashing in a smile
earldebuke 6:05pm
Your daughter! Siv!
robinrahne 7:43pm
It takes some time, and when Brekke finally finishes, she is silent a long moment.
shadylady 7:57pm
"Will."
shadylady 7:57pm
"When you write. To her."
shadylady 7:58pm
"What."
shadylady 7:58pm
"How.... "
shadylady 7:58pm
"Can I help?"
robinrahne 8:01pm
The silence stretches on a moment more, then...a soft chuckle. "I hear her. Frank, I hear her voice in this. Even through the translation. This is Siv again. These are her words...not the words she thinks we want to hear. Do you hear it, My Heart?"
shadylady 8:02pm
A long pause. "Perhaps if I read it."
shadylady 8:02pm
"But if you hear it."
shadylady 8:03pm
"Then yes."
robinrahne 8:04pm
"You do not read the language, My Heart." A gentle reminder. "I think...how close will you come to EarthRunes while you are on the road?"
shadylady 8:06pm
A grunt. "I won't. Not.... going to Memphis." Reluctant.
robinrahne 8:08pm
"Mm." A pause. "When you return, then, you should visit her."
shadylady 8:08pm
A pause.
shadylady 8:09pm
"On the return trip.... I will have Vali and Dagmr with me."
robinrahne 8:09pm
"No, I mean...after you return here. I will ask Gerd to help."
robinrahne 8:10pm
"Frank. What is ...there is something wrong."
shadylady 8:12pm
"No, nothing wrong." And...there isn't.
shadylady 8:13pm
"If you wish me to Flash in, I will."
robinrahne 8:17pm
A pause. "Let us discuss it when you return. But I think she may finally be ready to thrive." A pleased tone.
shadylady 8:18pm
"I hope so."
robinrahne 8:20pm
"Now...how is it, travelling with them?"
shadylady 8:20pm
"Good."
shadylady 8:21pm
After some mundane details (including knock knock jokes) he mentions the accident.
robinrahne 8:23pm
He can almost hear the eyebrow.
robinrahne 8:23pm
"You could have mentioned this earlier."
shadylady 8:24pm
"It was not urgent. They responded well."
robinrahne 8:24pm
"What of the mortals?"
shadylady 8:25pm
"I will call the trooper. He will be guarded and I will have to put the face on it as I can for Dagmar."
robinrahne 8:26pm
"There is truth in this. She will want to know."
shadylady 8:26pm
"I will tell her what I can. Truthfully."
robinrahne 8:29pm
"Tell her what you learn."
robinrahne 8:31pm
"And tell me, as well."
shadylady 8:31pm
"I will." Softly.
robinrahne 8:33pm
"I miss you, My Heart."