"I'm surprised he didn't charge..." her eyes flicker with an echo of true giant fury "Thank you, I would have... well, you know what I would have now. " SHe lowers her eyes, "Please, can we not...tell the younger ones about this? Siv, and Sylvi..sometimes they come to me for input, they see me as a role model. I don't want them thinking less of me, or worse, try to emulate that sort of..." A deep breath "not until I know how to warn them without making them think everyone's like that. Twisted inside even if they're nice on the outside."