"It's been hell, man." His blue eyes, saddened over his grin* "Not gonna lie. Sarah-girl, she said some of -- you guys -- can see me, and I won't know it, you know? Kind of messes with a guy's head, especially when she starts saying I need to be careful, man, or they might kill me if they find out, you know? But, like, Karma. Trust fate, right? But then Joel-dude is dropping hints, and like..." He paces a little more, before leaning against the wall, crossing his arms and studying his hooves* "I talk to Deathdude, and he gives me stories of like....how he stopped this chick's heart with her own music, man. All to make a point I shouldn't trust him, and like...how unpredictable he is. Hard to keep Zen, man, after a few jam sessions with him, and then hearing that. Then I lost it with the meth, and that kind of....fucked with my head, man. The whole non-violence thing, almost out the window. He said that wasn't my fault, man, but I feel it, you know? And...yeah, I've been having to steal, man, and I don't like doing that. Didn't mean to mess up his ward, but like...couldn't resist, kind of needed it."