"I can't, wish I could" she admits, "With Sylvi half her time in Rome to see her boyfriend, and Mom focused on various 'must do' lists .... and new Chrystalids... and who knows what else, I just... can't leave the lodge for long. Too much to do for that sort of luxury, Dagmar's solid but she's not in a good place, Gerd's acting love sick, which is fine but she's not doing much productive, it feels like most of us are only half there. So I need to be there twice over."