Siv assumes the pose, "My father and mother expect me to accept their defnitiions of ideals and are hurt or do not understand when I vary. And I, in turn, let my desire to please them..and others, immobilize me. My mother's last words where WHEN I turned away from them.. not if... to think of them.. she meant it to be very noble sounding, I'm sure, but it punched a hole in me."