#debukefarmhold

bzzt Boggans are gossips.

bzzt _Yes. And trolls are big doo doo heads who want to do things for their girlfriends and forget how sluagh hate being denied any secret. _

bzzt don't...

Bzzt don't?

bzzt do that.

Bzzt What did I do? That time I mean?

bzzt I know you were hurt. But I was hurt and upset too. But it feels like I can't be, or can't show it, without it turning into how much that hurts you

Bzzt I call myself a big doo doo head and you think I'm telling you you can't be hurt? Zara. I was admiting I screwed up. I don't know how you think that means I am competing? But I.. I'll try to word my apology more carefully?

bzzt not just that

bzzt I'm listening

bzzt Complicated

bzzt I know what it is. Graduation thing.

Bzzt That's half of it. Yes. Other half is a prom, but with ..privacy optioned sort of. I'm kind of proud of the idea I admit.

bzzt It's so much

bzt You deserve so much, but I meant what I said about giving you ways out. Not just flicker out either. You DESERVE your diploma

bzzt I wish you had told me

bbzzzt I wish I had to

Bzzt Sometimes I need to be unhappy and that can't be about you.

bzzt I'm learning that. ANd .. I think I see why you were right about our own rooms . I'd like to talk in person sometime please? Text doesn't have the word.

bbzt ok

bzzt Where would you prefer?

bzzt dunno

bzzt I could try the grotto?

bzzt Our cave. We haven't been there in a while

bzzt I've been.

bzzt Oh. Uhm.. okay. So.. there or you prefer the library?

bzzt Heck with it. I'm going to the grotto if you're there now to save time. No point in us dancing around where when we both want to talk

bzzt ok.

And there's a shimmering and...

Zara sets the phone aside, and draws her knees up to her chest.

he appears and bumps his head "Ow"

"Thou art too tall."

"Story of my life" rubbing his horns from the larger cave area

Zara, of course, is in the deep chamber - good thing Earl has wayfare, or he would be trapped.

Well, there is the Hollow trod that springs from there...

Dark eyes watch Earl, in silence.

"I've missed you" He finally says

A nod back, a murmur. Earl might catch a very soft "too."

A nod in the dark then "I...I want to make excuses and say 'what abouts' and so on... but that won't help and it's not what's important. I miss you? that's important. I love you. That's important too"

"...I love you, too."

"Would you like to know the plan? I mean, I knwo you know the main parts? Then. .then you can decide maybe easier?"

"It's..." A frustrated sigh.

"You could have... it... when everyone was sneaking around... I don't need every detail, but it..."

"Nobody would just admit they were planning something! Instead I was... it.. instead, it turned into 'don't you trust me?' and... and I gave you my name, and you want I should answer that question?"

"Oh... " he says

"I Guess you connect somethings I don't. Zara. you'e right, of course, you trusted me with something special... but I trusted you with my heart. I oathed for you. NEwither was meant as a tit for tat or one up. but.. "

"And... what? I have betrayed thee now?"

"No... but it felt like you were accusing ME of betraying you and we got caught in this stupid loop... and weird one upmasnhip... when mostly I was panicking about having hurt you"

"But you need to be able to tell me when you're hurting.. I get that. I .. never want to tell you HOW to feel. And I see how I might have done that"

"You did hurt me."