"Thanks. I, it helps that you understand. I'm not trying to abandon my duties to provide, you understand. I just want to- the words are in my head and they tap dance over my half awake thoughts like Gene Kelly and Fred Astaire having a showdown, each tap a syllable, and each scratch of shoe on surface a concept ready to burst through that barrier. If I don't open it myself, it'll all fall down and..." she chuckles "I sound crazy right?"