"I wish I could figure out the play. So I could ... be whatever you guys want so I could get on the team. There are people I love who won't love me because I might end up Sidhe. And that's, like, the best thing I can think of. Being Sidhe. So I get hurt for wanting and maybe getting it.... or not getting what I want most, right? And on top of all that, I'm .... like a second class citizen, right? Useful but not... real. But all that is just bitching, and I should just shut up and be grateful for what I have. And do what I'm told. And I -try-." He stops and presses his lips together; more could come but he's caught himself.
