"Mind you, at times i do feel... well, like I've had to surrender some of my best questing years. Can't take the wild out of the wilder. I mean, I COULD Go, Got good folk to handle it temp... but I'm just enough of a bossybritches that I worry others won't do it like I would do it, and if something does go wrong, I'd rather it be me messing up so I know.. oh I probably sound crazy"