#bergen_county

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At the Apartment, Siv enters to hear bustling around in the bedroom, and the sharp clip clip of quickly moving hooves in the next room over.

Siv moves quickly and enters in , tempted to lock the door so her love can't run away, but then she realizes how nuts THAT would be Oh I am so not playing the crazy possessive one tonight a deep breath "Piper? Baby?"

Unaware her endearment may not be... appropriate at this time. Or too much so

"Siv?" Her voice wavers, and she steps out of the bedroom, her eyes red. "Siv, promise - please. Promise you won't be mad at me. I know that's not fair to ask, but.."

"Hey hold on now, what's this? Are you okay?" She takes Piper's hands "You're not okay. It's all right. Whatever it is. I'm here for you."

"No, I'm not okay. Siv -" She inhales, then just blurts it out. "I'm pregnant."

For a moment, Siv stiffens and her eyes kind of go distant. She maybe having an out of body experience, or perhaps just the troll version of a blue screen

Piper squeezes the hands Siv took. "Siv? Siv... please, look at me."

Siv seems summoned back to the THIS realm by the voice of Piper "Wait, how? "

Piper looks up at her, eyes filling. "I didn't mean - that is, it wasn't intentional... It must have been... Beltaine? That's the only time I can figure... Siv, I am so, so sorry."

"Okay so Jonas..." Confusion "Wait, Jonas wasn't there on Beltaine. I was SO mad at him for that , we both were, we got a little drunk sure but... I.. god it's a blur. " A pause "Hold on, Piper? It's not Jonas. He couldn't have been the father ... "

She just waits, her expression miserable, waiting for Siv to connect the dots.

Then an idea, and her eyes darken, but the anger is not against Piper ,but rather on her behalf"Who? Who is the guy who took advantage of you? I will find that son of a bitch and rip his dick off and shove it up his own ass! I Will have him sodomize himself! Son of a bitch took advantage of you while you were passed out ? I'll murder him!"

"Siv, siv... no. I don't.. I don't remember everything, but no one would have - it was at Goldfinch. The HOLD wouldn't have allowed it, right? And I think. I'd KNOW... I think... Siv. There were drinks, there was... the party, and gift of pan, not just mine, but others too, and..."

At that, the anger shifts, and turns to confusion again.

"I remember thinking, I thought, I remembered Jonas was there - but it wasn't. It wasn't him... and... Siv, I think I made a huge mistake. I know, I know I did..."

She remembers what Aunt Kerri said, and that ... that helps. "Are you sure? I mean, that you didn't pass out? We were both pretty wasted"

She bites her lip and nods.

"I .... I ..." A breath, then she looks at Piper, really looks, and sees how hurting her love is, how scared...

"Are ... are you okay?" She drops the hands and hugs Piper "Are YOU all right? I mean... it's got to be ... I know, trolls have a bad rap. Your own mothers warned us that ... nevermind about what they said. THey were wrong. I... I admit i'm a bit confused " Hurt she thinks But so is she "but I don't want you scared of me. Ever"

She wraps her arms around Siv, at least as far as they can go, fingers barely touching on the opposite side. "Never, Siv. I'm just afraid of what you might feel, what you might... need to do... I know you'd never hurt me." Not physically, at least.

"I feel a lot of things." She confesses. We never oathed. She has not betrayed Jonas or I. She hasn't. "I admit, but I still love you. I just... I'm very confused. I mean, probably not as confused as you are. How'd you find out? I mean, did your usual visitor fail to show up?"

"I've been getting sick.. " She explains the cruise ship, the weird food binging, and going to Kerri... "So, she knows. I hope she doesn't tell anyone... I mean, I'm not ready- I.. I have to deal with.. a lot first."

Siv nods slowly, guiding them both to the big ass couch "Aunt Kerri was a good choice. She's.. she gives good advice. "A breath "Okay. Who do you think is the father? Or might be? Any ideas."

She wracks her own brain trying to recall who was there, male and there then.. "Oh dear gods, Piper. Not Dirk?"

She nods slowly. "I... I'm afraid it could be a few fellows. I was thinking... maybe, Dagmar? If I could get her help to ask around - not to blame, or anything, but whatever decision I make... they - whoever he is - needs to know."

She winces and gives a slight nod, then shrug. "I think I might have bruises or bite marks if so, and I'm fine. I just get the feeling he's not the gentle lover type?" She says, with a slight shiver.

"I remember... jamming out with Lyndale, and doing shots with Dirk... um... there were a couple trolls there, DeBuke's, I think? I can't remember names, but they were cute in a corn fed sort of way... there was that little cantrip competition with Zane..." She looks sick for a moment. "Oh, he's my cousin. Not by BLOOD, but... No, I couldn't. wouldn't have."

A brow lift at the mention of Zane then she shakes her head "Nah, neither of you are game of thrones fans. I remember some centaurs... oh crap, one was Jordan. "

Linwood would be fine, but Jordan? The kid would be miserable right out of the box

Her brow furrows. "I don't think Colton was there? He and Sylvi broke it off, right?" Clearly trying to make sense of bits and pieces from over a month ago.

"I'd think I'd remember a centaur... but, you know, Jonas is 'gifted', and you know what they say about centaur fellas... I just... Siv, I'm so sorry we have to even think about this. You must think I'm the worst girlfriend ever. And, I am."

"I think ... I think you must be terrified. I... can I tell you something?"

Piper nods cautiously.

"Before Beltaine, when you were with your dad on that tour? Remember that? I .. ended up sick, had trouble keeping things down. Sound familiar?"

"Anyway... Aunt Kerri noticed, and ... I took a test. But I was so worried about it until it came up. I had so many doubts. I mean, I ... I did not feel ready. I did not feel... " A breath "I didn't know what Iwould say. It's different for you, I know, but I know what it's like to feel so unsure of your own worth it's... aye. It's scary. Even a Fiona knows that. So ... no, not the worst girlfriend just.. a human one, at least human enough. As for the... well, how it came about. You don't even remember it. We just don't know. So by what right do I judge without knowing more? I'm here for you"

She buries her face in Siv's side. "I don't deserve a lover as good to me as you."

Siv considers this "Well, if it's justice you want, I can act like I forgot what the hell a clitoris is for a week, that'll teach you" a little humor there intended

THen more seriously "And I'm not that good. Trust me. I ... I can be very selfish."

"I'm... gonna have to tell Jonas. At least... I feel selfish for this - at least we don't need to tell him yet. I mean, we can't, not while he's in the dreaming. Hopefully we have all the info before we have to start that conversation."

"WE will tell Jonas, or you'll tell him but I'll be there with you. You're not alone. Got that? "

She nods. "What do you think... think Dagmar will help? I mean, it's not like I expect people to lie, exactly, but if they think they're getting in trouble, or if I'm looking to place blame, I couldn't really... blame them?"

"Gwydions are a pain the ass, bt they also have their uses and she's a friend. I trust her with my life, and she's your friend too. Ask her if she'll help. If she declines? No harm done"

She nods. "I will." Resting her head against Siv's arm. "I just.. don't know what to do... about the, y'know. Main thing. Maybe focusing on figuring things out first buys me time."

"Whether you want to keep it...him or her, or not. What you want to name ...oh geez. I'm dizzy and it's not even my... wow. Yeah. Lots to think about. I'm with you through it though. Now, you.. you rest up. Want me to be your pillow for a bit?" Indeed, they're kind of slipped a cuddle

"You really mean it? I mean, I won't hold you to anything you say right now. But.. at least for now... you. Do you really mean that? You realize... we're talking about... jesus.. a whole ass baby - no, a person. This would change your... all of our lives. I don't want to force you into something... different... something you never sought out... just because of one stupid slip up on my part. I'd never want that - to mess with your dreams."

Sliding into the cuddle like she belongs there.

A deep swallow as fear of falling in love with what .. no, who might come, arises "It's scary, but... I Mean it. Whatever you decide. I'll support you and if need be him or her. And hey, who knows, maybe he or she will like sea travel? Now..shhh"

Siv relaxes a bit, as Piper does. A mirror to her passioate Partner. In this, she can protect her love, as much as anyone can from such. Siv can be strong for her.

And Piper may find herself falling to sleep, it's been a stressful time, but now? She might just feel safe