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"I hate to take c redit for it myself. That's not fair. YOu were awesome!"

"Uhg."

"You were NOT awesome?" A brow

"No, I mean... there's no way to... shit, I'm just glad they haven't heard about gun guy yet..."

"They will.. Lucia will hear.. and then blam, whole boggan network. And anne Marie and Tove talk"

"Damn."

"Right so.. we turn around nad run to my sister and beg her for haven rather than face our folks" Jokele

lie*

Snort.

"Well, we earned it, fair and square."

"Yeah. Yeah. I'll see if my folks cannot pry. Actually busy as they are.. they may not know we're gone. " SHe ponders "Oh my gosh! that's how I'll do it. I'll leave the money to your folks annoymously"

"Yeah!"

"It's honest and humble.. they wont' owe me anything because they won't knwo it's me and they can't just return it!" A grin

"...yeah." She chews on her thumb.

"Hey, you okay? You seem anxious"

"I just don't wanna deal with... stuff..."

"I'll try to keep it low key." SHe says and pats her cousin on the shoulders "Hey, it's gonna be okay. " A breath "And I'm gong tokeep telling mySELF that you know?" then a laugh "Yeah, I'll forbid mom from dying"

"Damn straight."

"I want to, you know? "

"I don't want to lose the Chief, yeah. And I can't even imagine how... yeah.."

A breath "Yes. I have a lot more questions yet. Things I'm afraid to ask so I watch for the answers. Is who I am set now? Or do I still have choices to be...other? Is honor something others expect of me, I expect of myself, or is it some something the universe already gives me the instinct for? When did she know it was time to marry ? How... how do you choose who lives and dies if you command many and must send someone not yourself who could die? Am I coward for hoping I never have to do that?"