"Fuck visiting," Siv hurmphs, "I feel like i just lost a part of meself. " A sigh "SOrry sorry just I've had this fake 'everything is wonderful' face on all night for the good of others and I'm tired of pretending it's all great. They DO deserve their happiness, it's just... apparently part of their being happy is bieng on the other side of the country away from us. It stings"